Ghubaar

Insaan ki zindagi me kitni tarha ki aazmaishe hoti hain. Sab apni apni trha se unka samna karte hain. Zindagi phir bhi chalti hi rehti hai. Us din bhi samandar ki lehre dekhte hue main bahut kuch aisa soch rahi thi. Halki dhoop me tez thandi hawa mujhe sukun dena to door, ek ajeeb si chidh de rhi thi. Mujhe laga tha ki ye chhutti ka din mujhe kuch behtar mehsus karayega. Par har taraf log, unke bachche, unki chilla pukari mujhe aur pareshan kar rhi thi. Shayed mujhse ghalti hogyi thi yahan akar. Main ye sab sochte hue uthkar pani ki taraf gayi aur bas gehre paani me chalti chali gayi. Adhe raste maine ghoom ke dekha to sab log kaafi peechhe rehgaye the. Log apne biwi, bachcho, dosto ke sath is thande pani me bahut aish se naha rahe the. Sab kitne khush the. Maine neeche dekha to paani me ret udti hui dikhi aur sath hi wo khatpatwar paude jo apne aap kahin bhi paida hote hain aur phir khayal na karne pe badhte chale jate hain. Unmein se ek aisi bel mere per me phasne lagi to main peechhe aane lagi. Lehro pe lehre pani ko aur uncha karti ja rahi thi aur main us bel se bachne ke liye peechhe arhi thi. Aur kuch der bad mere per wapas geeli ret pe the, paani se bahar. Mayus hokar main wapas akar apni chadar pe baithgayi. Dhoop ab tez hone lagi thi par hawa ki thandak hath per khushk kare de rahi thi.

“Tum ab mujhse kuch bolti kyu nahi ho.” Faiz ne mujhse poochha.

“Kya bolun?” Maine kaha un sab bachcho ko dekhte hue jo Sahil pe har taraf dikhayi derahe the. Koi ret ka mehel bana raha tha. Koi apne ko ret me daba raha tha, koi paani me ghote laga raha tha. Sab kitne khush the, duniya ki uljhano se door.

“Pehle to tum mujhe har baat batati thi. Ab kya hogya?”

Main kuch der Faiz ko dekhti rahi. Mujhe samajh nahi araha tha ke main usko kya bolun, kahan se shuru karun. Phir maine thoda thoda krke baat shuru ki aur wo khamoshi se meri baatein sunta raha. Beech me main gusse me kafi der royi bhi. Har wo baat jo pichhle kai mahino se mujhe khaye ja rahi thi maine usko wo sab sunayi aur usne kisi baat ko nahi kata. Koi safai nahi di. Sirf sunta raha. Adhe ghante tak maine apne dil ki bhadaas nikaali. Mera chehra laal hogya aur mera jism garam, lekin bahar ki sard hawa ne mere chup hone ke dus minute ke andar mujhe pursukun kardiya.

Thodi der khamosh rehne ke baad main wapas uthi aur pani ki taraf gayi. Wapas ghar jane se pehle har baar main ek baar pani me zaroor jati thi. Is baar main zyada andar tak nahi gayi. Pani bas takhno tak hi araha tha. Hawa aur naram lagne lagi thi. Dhoop hawa ki thand ko kaat rahi thi. Ajeeb sa sukun tha fiza me. Aur jab maine is baar neeche pani me dekha to mujhe hazaro rangeen seepiyan is shaffaf pani me har taraf khilkhilati dikhayi dene lagi thi.